The Kick and Scream…

My daughter has to nap every day. If she misses her nap or even gets to her bed later than normal she starts having a melt down. There is a crazy voice sound that she makes only at this time, she does quite a bit of running around (mostly to get away from my lets go to bed hands), and when I’ve finally grasped her there is a bit of thrashing, crying, head throwing etc. Throughout the entire process I have her on my hip saying “Yes, I know love, you’re tired, it’s gonna be ok, almost there,” as I hummm. When we finally arrive in her room I grab her favorite blanket and put it on my shoulder where she can lay her head on it and I begin to sing her night night song. It’s a song I wrote for her on an airplane flying to or from Europe while I was pregnant with her. As soon as the song starts there is silence from her and relaxation. Her arms drop to her side and her head snuggles against my shoulder. I sing a verse and a chorus and another verse all taking probably about a minute and she is asleep. I lay her down and she sleeps peacefully and wakes happily later.

I just put Scarlett down for a nap where this played out and as she lay on my shoulder I started thinking about the fighting that she did. Why? She is exhausted, she desperately needs the nap and yet she fights it. So why does she kick and scream? As my mind tiptoed over these thoughts I began seeing the spiritual. I think about my kick and scream moments and then neared tears as I thought of my Heavenly Father whispering calmly to me “Yes, I know love, you’re tired, it’s gonna be ok, almost there.” Then I remembered and can now grasp more fully this verse:

Zephaniah 3:17

“17 The LORD your God in your midst,
The Mighty One, will save;
He will rejoice over you with gladness,
He will quiet you with His love,
He will rejoice over you with singing.”



About sarah macintosh

I am Sarah MacIntosh, formerly the lead singer for a band called Chasing Furies. I am a writer. Some writing has melody some doesn't. Some writing is for myself and some is for others. The songs tend to bubble up inside for quite some time and eventually burst out later with or without a guitar in my hand. Recently there have been towering highs and plummeting lows in my life all which have been carefully guarded by my Savior, Jesus. It is these things that have been written about on scraps of paper, tattered journals, and my faithful mac laptop. These words jotted down have swirled around in my head until they have finally come out of my mouth in melody. Melody and words have joined together and are now being carefully placed and suspended in time on tracks that will eventually be a cd. I will crack the door so that you can see what has been written... here and a a hotel... View all posts by sarah macintosh

12 responses to “The Kick and Scream…

  • terrence gooden

    That verse in Zephaniah is one of my favorite parts of God’s word. As a singer/musician,I never considered God’s ability to or desire to sing until I read this verse a few years ago. Now that I’m a parent of a amazing almost-10 month-old boy named Landon, I have found another great love for these words. I first read this post a few months ago and several times it has come to my mind when my son was fighting going to sleep. Today,he cried in agony because I think his teeth are soon to break through his gums(ouch!). He was very sleepy and I couldn’t comfort him quickly enough. After calling his mom and trying some other things. I just started to sing to him. He immediately calmed down! I am so happy I read your blog! Thanks for sharing your life and love of God.

  • Rachel

    Thank you for sharing that, especially the verse! Going through a tough trial right now, and that was so encouraging to my heart. God bless!

  • "Normal" Is a Setting on a Washing Machine

    Beautiful. This was the “ah ha” moment I needed to hear today. Thank you.


  • Eric Lofholm

    Hi Sarah,
    I wanted to reach out and say hi. My wife and I used to attend your church and we would listen to you sing. I am a huge music fan. If I had kept all the CDs I have purchased through the years I would easily have 1,000. I love all types of music. Your music is fantastic. You have the best voice I have ever heard. I now attend Bayside Church in Granite Bay. You may know that is Lincoln Brewster’s home church. If you would consider singing at Bayside I can help try to make that happen. About 10,000 people attend church each week.
    Eric Lofholm

    • sarah macintosh

      thanks for the kind words eric. i do know bayside and have sung there before with brenton brown. it is a beautiful church and would love to come back. stop by and say hi anytime you are back at horizon in san diego 🙂

      sarah mac

  • Marisol LaBoy

    This was amazing!! Thank you for writing that blog!! Rachel steered me here to read it, and I am so glad that I did!!

  • Bobby Sparks

    Nice blog! Your cousin Brian told me about it.

  • Meggie Ulrich

    That was so awesome it brought tears to my eyes…

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